i think about the other, older things ive written on this blog and i realize how much things have changed. My entire outlook on life has become much more positive.(much less macabre). Im able to enjoy things more and realize whats really important in the scheme of things.Nothings ever as bad as i am capable of making it seem. I have a beautiful daughter and a loving fiancee.Sofie has taught me probably much more than i will ever teach her about life.