Some crazy thing I wrote when I was 15

I'm scared of what i dont know
the past i cannot find
all the thoughts and feelings
so vainly lost in time
It hurts to think about it
these memories i cant see
it makes me want to shout it,
someone please help me!
but when someone trys to help,
its so easy to back away,
and i know you dont understand
the words that i dont say.
i might as well be mute,
everything i say is wrong.
i sit behind my life
pretending to be strong.
Although you may not see it
my wounds still havn't healed
all my thoughts are hid away
in a safe place locked and sealed.
Dont try to think you know me,
theres no way that you could.
Not many have seen the real me,
some, i dont think they should.
on the inside i am different
but ill never let that out
youll only know a falseness
never really what im about
some people think im scary
i understand why
im so different from everybody,
we cant see eye to eye.
So no use trying to help me
i must do it on my own.
i cannot show you the real me
thats a side of me that cant be shown.